We all have dreams and goals.  I’d be surprised to hear someone say, I have no dreams.  Perhaps that’s why it’s so disturbing when we see the dreams of others get swept away by the torrent of life.  We don’t typically like to see other people’s dreams dashed because we know how important our own dreams are to us and we can feel the pain and loss that others go through when their dreams don’t come to be.

When I told people that I was shutting down TikLogic Ventures, Inc. there was a lot of concern and I think it’s because people associated this entity with my personal dreams of escaping the corporate world.  I appreciate everyone’s concern but the dream is not dead.

I have been in the IT industry for a very long time and when I made the decision to leave my post as a senior manager with an international software company I took a couple of months off just to refocus and decide my next steps.  The fact that I was able to advance my career and have the opportunity to work for a great company and with some truly talented people would have been a dream come true for many people.  And it was for me too.  Things got to a point where I felt that I had achieved as much as I could but I was unsure what I wanted to do next.  I had always thought about what it might be like to strike out on my own and consult but I didn’t want to be just another IT consultant so I had to figure out what would set me apart.  That’s probably a story for another day.  The truth is, I had been planning my departure from the software company for about a year before all of the pieces started to fall in place.  My decision to leave was not made overnight, it was a planned move.  The decision to start TikLogic came during my 2 months break form the working world.  There were a number of options available to me and it was just a matter of choosing a direction.  There were no right or wrong answers just a choice to make.

At some point in our lives we have all looked back and said, “I wish I had made a different choice” or “That was a mistake”.  Maybe it’s because of my advancing age and maybe there is some sort of wisdom emerging but I really don’t think that any conscious choice can be a mistake.  Every choice that we make can bring with it some good and some bad.  Even the most seemingly devastating choices can help us grow as individuals if we allow ourselves to learn from the experience.  It was the same with TikLogic.

Being in business for yourself is always an interesting experience.  I’ve done it a few times now and have learned something new every time.  In this case, closing the business was not because it was failing or the dream was dead.  When people go through a divorce things change.  Things have to change; change is part of the process.  Throw a lawyer or two in the mix and suddenly, your infant company that barely makes enough for you to manage a modest living as it’s sole employee gets touted as a multi-million dollar international conglomerate and the dollar signs swirl in front of your ex-wife’s eyes.  So to make it easy and to eliminate any confusion about what it really is, you have your accountant deliver the financials to your ex so she can see for herself that there is no huge fortune tucked away somewhere and to shut up her lawyer who contends that the company is infinitely valuable and probably the next Google you go back to work for someone else and close the company doors and carry on with your life.  OK, that might have sounded a little bitter because certain humor tones don’t translate well to blogs Big Smile.  The truth is I’m not bitter at all and shutting down my company didn’t impede my journey to achieving my dreams.

In fact, I am still moving toward my dream of putting the 8 to 5 work day behind me.  I work for a great company that understands the importance of treating its employees as people.  There are no clocks to punch and as long as the work gets done I have all the freedom in the world.  But this was also a choice.  I had the option to work for a number of organizations some even offering a significant pay increase but at the end of the day I couldn’t put a value on the flexibility that my current employer offered.  The pay might be a bit lower but the freedom is priceless to me.

So, for those of you who were concerned that my dreams had died, don’t worry.  I’m closer to achieving them than I thought I would be at this point 😀

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